tonight. I was such a pleasure to go to the Semi Annual General Relief Society Conference with my mother. We sat there snuggling (trying to keep warm since the a/c was pumping) intently listening to the conference. It was just what my spirit needed.
Life has been difficult lately. I have been struggling with moving and with home life. Sometimes is has been so hard that I felt like I was wondering without direction. Things just didn't feel right. I was missing something. Despite trying to keep up with regular scripture study, attending all much church meetings, volunteering whenever I could and praying more intently, I just continued to feel lost. Deep within me I knew that I must attend the temple. It sounds so simple -- just take 2 hours out of your day and go. But each time I tried to go something happened. I either missed the session or couldn't find child care or Ian had an emergency surgery or maybe I was just full of too many excuses. But today I woke up around 5 am and was unable to go back to sleep. I kept toying with the idea of getting up and going to the Mesa Temple (since I was staying at my parent's home) but I kept fighting myself -- making excuses. When 5:45 came I knew I must go; I just HAD to make it to the 6:30 session. With the quickest shower, help from mom and lots of prayers for green traffic lights I made it to the temple by 6:20 -- Just enough time to make it to the session.
As I sat reverently listen to the words of the endowment my mind was opened. I learned so much more than I have ever learned before. Then an amazing feeling came over me and I felt peace. I knew that I am a daughter of a Heavenly Father who has created me to fulfill specific roles in life and that one of these roles is to be happy.
Then tonight, my impressions from the temple sunk deep into my heart when I heard President Dieter F. Uchtdorf (BTW -- isn't he good looking?) said that "Happiness is our Heritage" and that we are sent here to CREATE! Even if it is to simply make a little place in my house more beautiful or to take up painting again or to have this little furniture store or to sing or to play with my kids more -- this is what I need to do to fulfill my creative role.
I am now at peace! I know what I need to do and I am happy to have the Heavenly right to be HAPPY!